I get asked all the time about why I decided to lose weight. The first thought that comes to mind is “Are you blind?” But with much restraint, I don’t say that! I always have to stop and think for a second what to tell them because there isn’t just one reason. There are several reasons I have, the least being about appearance.
All my life I have been a little above average size. Not obese, not skinny minnie, just a little overweight. Being 4’11 is not easy. 10 pounds overweight on someone this height might as well be 40! I was always pretty active; marching band, living in the Sunshine state. However, I was never viewed average, I was overweight to everyone.
Now fast forward to 2005. I weighed 140 pounds, not terrible, but for my height I was 30 pounds overweight. At the same time, I found out I was pregnant with my first daughter. After she was born via cesarean, I weighed 175 pounds-yikes!! I started to exercise and promised myself that I would never get over 200 pounds….I would die before that happened. Well, guess what happened? I broke my promise.
At the end of November 2007 , I was pregnant again with my second daughter. This pregnancy was dreadful and the most difficult thing I ever went through. I was sick my entire pregnancy. Everyday, I felt weak and sick to my stomach, but I still gained weight. My daughter was also diagnosed with health problems during the pregnancy as well. Lots of stress! When she was born I weighed 260 pounds. I cried for days! I was so depressed. I felt ugly and like a failure. People treated me differently, except my husband. He always told me how beautiful I was…everyday! That helps, but when you don’t see it, its hard to believe.
In 2009, I finally got enough motivation to start on this weight loss journey. We got a Wii, which came with some fitness games. It was fun and was helping me to lose weight. I went up and down for the next year, but I got down to 250 pounds. Then, in 2010 it happened again. I found out that I was pregnant with my 3rd daughter. I didn’t care much about weight gain, I was super excited. I was more active during this pregnancy. I did gain a lot of weight, and some was fluid and baby, but the scale doesn’t count it separate! After I had my daughter (you might want to sit down for this), I weighed 305 pounds. No I didn’t type that wrong. I was shocked to say the very least. I was determined more than ever to lose this weight. I needed to be healthy for my family, so began the journey!
I started exercising to Zumba. I have to say, man it was exhausting, but so much fun. I started with the game for the Wii. I changed my diet, cut down my portions, and cut out sugar. I literally ate egg whites and turkey bacon for months. In 2012, I got down to 227 pounds! I was so proud of myself! I had more confidence, had more energy, and felt great!
You know how the story goes. When things are going good, something always comes and throws you for a loop. In December 2012, my mother came to visit with us for Christmas. She was very sick, and looked horrible. Over the next 6 months, she lived with us and I helped her. She finally got a clean bill of health, and then tragedy struck. She had a massive stroke, and passed away a week later. I was devastated. I didn’t care about losing weight, or anything for that matter. I shot back up to 285 pounds. When I finally stopped my grief from ruining my life, I could focus on my life again. In mind, I was getting back to normal, but my body was not.
In 2014, I was still 280-285 pounds. Now, I felt sick and weak. I was diagnosed with
diabetes, low iron, high cholesterol, and a string of other problems. The doctor looked at me with shame, like I was abusing myself. I was not going to give these doctors the satisfaction of being another statistic. Not only that, I didn’t want to end up like my mother and dying from a stroke at age 49. So, I flushed all the medication they gave me and was going to get to work. I went back on my diet, exercised everyday, and kept God in charge of everything. I knew that with Him I could do anything!
I started and little by little the pounds were coming off. My labs were getting better. I was feeling better! I got the Zumba Exhilarate DVD set for Christmas 2015. It was amazing! I loved it! On January 1st 2016, I managed to get down to 247 pounds. I made a goal for 2016 to get down to 180 pounds, I was being ambitious of course, but that’s what goals are really about.
Now, It is December 2016, and January is coming up in a hurry. I am not sure if I will make my goal, but I am going to work harder than I ever have before. As of December 1st, I now weigh 193 pounds! I can’t believe that in 2011, I weighed 305 pounds and lost 112 pounds, and just in one year have lost 59 pounds! I am still in awe of what is possible when God is on your side! I am hoping 2017 brings more weight loss success for me and others like me. It has really changed my life. I now have people saying that I inspired them to do the same in their life. Me? Inspire someone? That is not comprehensible to me because I don’t feel like an inspiration to anyone. I tell people “Don’t be inspired by me, I didn’t do it; God did!”